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From:
[email protected]
To: Little Bat <
[email protected]>
Sent: Tuesday, June 17, 2008 4:51:26 PM
Subject: practical
hey checked out prices and it would cost me 50 bucks to get to (your town) and back. and that is just not practical. not to mention carrying live mj clones . however i would still verry much like to get some conquistador beans. if you would be into sending me some that would be verry cool.and if you find yourself in (my town) then id gladly hook you up with some clones. any way it was nice to meet another lover of weed close to home. send a reply and ill give you mailing info. all my best
MY RESPONSE:
I just sat in the restaurant for an hour trying to call you and getting the voice mail of some guy named John!!!
Grrrrr.
HIS RESPONSE:
.hmmessage P { margin:0px;padding:0px;} body.hmmessage { FONT-SIZE:10pt;FONT-FAMILY:Tahoma;} im sooooo sorry i feel like a idiot i honestly felt that cause you didnt e mail me that mabey you were a little uneasy and changed your mind. john is my roommate hes in rohde island.im broke i left my career at ups a year ago and have had trouble finding work. not to mention im a complete pot head. so my phone is off. Any way the seeds aside i would like to meet you still if you dont feel like im a complete dick. you seem intresting to me. its weird i thought we had a love connection on the phone. and we have things in common. are you single? ive got a small harvest soon like 3 days then another 3 to dry. and i should be able to swing the train ride and mabey a inexpensive dinner to make up for it.Did you really sit at the restaraunt? listen moneywise im pathetic im moderatly talented not completly unatractive im a little impulsive but im honest and sincere and a pretty good guy and i grow pretty nice herb. balls in your court. sorry for the miss communication. e mail me back and ill call you on thursday nite. mabey we could talk if your into it. be good-G
MY RESPONSE:
I feel sort of bad saying this, but I have an insanely full life and a group of great friends I hardly ever get to see. I already have so many people in my life I want to spend time with and can't that I don't really have time to develop new relationships right now. Plus, I'm broke too, and I smoke, but I'm insanely motivated and genuinely living my dream and busting my ass to do it. I need to have people around me who are doing the same, and who are actively engaged in making art or books or music or doing scientific research and working hard to get those things out into the world. That's just where I'm coming from right now. And yes, I'm single, but it's by choice; I came out of a major relationship less than a year ago and I have zero interest in dating anyone at all right now.
It was nice talking to you on the phone, but I kind of felt like I was just talking about what I did. No offense, but when you're a girl and you tell a guy you're a dancer, he tends to immediately obsess on it and ask you if you're single. Your reaction was one I get a lot of. EVERYONE is fascinated by it! I do hope you'll find some dance to watch if you really do have an interest.
And last but not least -- forgive me, I'm a writer, I'm a spelling fanatic -- it's "maybe." As in, "it may be." That's the root of the word.
I don't mind sending you a few of these seeds if you give me your address.
THEN I GET A CREEPY EMAIL TELLING ME HOW I'M ARROGANT, FULL OF SHIT, AND AM ACTUALLY SAYING THESE THINGS BECAUSE I WATCHED HIS YOUTUBE VIDEOS (I didn't) AND I THINK HE'S UGLY. UNFORTUNATELY, I DELETED IT BECAUSE IT SCARED ME.
THEN I GET THIS:
sorry bout that, you never owed me a
explanation.my mind went from seed interest to love interest. sometimes i get lonely.and when we talked. i was thinking wow we have things in common. let my mind drift.then when i read your email i felt like you were judging me and in correctly.i do apoligize sincerly. I still dont spell verry well.Im really not a dick.i just dont like rejection.(who dose?)anyway from the things you have told me like your following your heart and dreams. and your intelligence you have earned my respect.I hope you would still consider gifting me a few connie seeds.i would still trade a f-13 clone.this will be my last e mail. unless i hear back. i figure ive allready made a ass out of myself.
MY RESPONSE:
I'm a bit confused, when you last wrote me you told me I was arrogant and you were happily single and the fact that I was a dancer was a turnoff and you weren't asking me out. Now you *were* asking me out and suddenly you respect me. It seems like you're loving me one minute and hating me the next and this is all on the basis of one phone conversation!! I was happy to give you some seeds, but you stood me up, didn't call, and then sent me an email telling me how unattractive I am. I am a woman you've never met! Please don't invest these huge emotions in every woman with whom you have a conversation -- at least try actually meeting them first!
Good luck to you.
WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN THE THREADS SINCE I SENT THE ABOVE EMAIL. I HAVE IGNORED ALL OF THIS:
In which he writes me a poem trying to get my seeds:
https://www.rollitup.org/grow-journals/83591-littlebats-first-grow-08-a-3.html
In which he refers to me as a groupie in Subcool's thread:
https://www.rollitup.org/subcools-old-school-organics/60437-subcool-seeds-5.html
In which he corrects an intentional misspelling in my icon:
https://www.rollitup.org/organics/83309-willow-bark-extract-3.html
In which he posts the same comment in an additional thread:
https://www.rollitup.org/subcools-old-school-organics/84937-great-riu-conquistador-grow-08-a-9.html
In which he lashes out again in his own thread:
https://www.rollitup.org/inspired-art/86864-bat-bud.html#post1030586
I was ignoring him through all of this. I really debated posting this; I didn't want to perpetuate the drama. But the vitriol is getting so out of control I felt I should post this now to warn and hopefully protect other women. PLEASE, WOMEN, WATCH OUT HERE!!!!!!! This is, unfortunately, the kind of thing that can happen when you turn a guy down. I was an idiot -- NEVER give anyone you meet online your phone number!!!
MODS, this is the email exchange I offered to send you, if you need the PMs I've gotten from him as well I can send you those too. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. Please help me end the harassment. I just want this to end and to be left alone.