high|hgih
Well-Known Member
Lately I havent been feeling as Lucid as I used to. Maybe this was 10 years ago, maybe this was 20 years ago.. I remember when I was a child I could lay in my bed and have a fantastic scenario play out in my mind of me being some mega important, super human jedi things, getting all the girls I liked.. I couldn't wait to go to bed sometimes for that reason. I want motivation to map out things, to read everything despite the boringness of it, to learn more.. Everything.. Haha, but for some reason I've become lazy. To lazy to even think like I used to. I used to think it was drugs doing it to me, recently I haven't been doing much of any of them. The past few weeks don't count, because even before that I thought about this routinely. Whenever I smoke I suddenly gain the lucidity, yet socially, I turn retarded. Too lazy to write my ideas when I'm stoned that would help me in real life. Why?
Other people have to be experiencing this problem also.. How is it fixable? It has to be..
Other people have to be experiencing this problem also.. How is it fixable? It has to be..