I've had that same feeling of this is actually death that we're living in right now. On 200 mg of 4acodmt I remember being glued to my bed absolutely couldn't move. I wanted to cry out for help or something. Anything to remind myself that I'm alive and all is ok. And as soon as I got the thought thatb"I'm alive I can't be dead, this is MY house MY parents are sleeping upstairs... A huge voice? Thought? Completely obliterated everything else and just basically said no. And your parents have gone through the exact same thing. Like I saw them come down in the morning and see my paralyzed body, cold and dead and stiff, and in this image (felt like forever, was probably only 1-2 minutes... If that!!) They came over and were laughing at me. Like haha newb. We've been there done that. Now get up. cause we're all dead here. And there were rainbows coming out of their body's, like chakras. And I thought no.. Noooo this can't be it. I'm dead you guys are alive. And they said no, we've always been dead. You've always been dead. And then all the color got sucked out of the room like I was in black on dark gray. Not even white, almost black on different shades of black. And then a voice said, its time to come back now. And I heard a song
If I hadn't been paralyzed, I would have written it down. It was fascinating.
Something about I don't wanna be a hippopotamus I'd rather be a unicorn because the unicorn is at the top and the hippos are way below and then... The colors started cycling back and the song repeated itself at least a dozen times. Like I got the impression that the reason it repeated was because I/we were too stubborn to understand the meaning. Towards the end, the very last time. It raced through the whole cycle. Something about the races on our planet coming from other planets and other shapes within shapes and colors. But it sped up really fast cause I just got IT. I understood everything. Each line I looked left. Then another line I looked right then the again left and faster. And faster until I was looking leftrightleftrightlefrighlefriglerilrlrlrlrlrlrlrlr and as I changed direction with my eyes. One distinct hue would come back to my vision