Nahh, we're family, gets tough for all of us at one time or another.
Spit it out.
i moved threads, idk why.. maybe this will be an accomplishment one day
i know nobody really wants to read these posts.. but fuck yall
not all of my posts can be happy or growing, posting studies, drugs, pharma, and trapping... sometimes i let a little bit of whats deep in my noggin peak through. some of yall know torn i really am inside..
i talked to my ex wife today again, we talk on occasion, between 8-4pm on weekdays lol
anyway i think she might come visit, she lives in corpus Christi right now. she was my best friend for so long im kind of excited to reunite but at the same time my heart is racing and im nervous plus worried.. i left her and i dont regret it, but its not like i wanted to...i mean we still love each other, we both cant go too long without bringing one another up in conversation
i told her to bring her girlfriend cause im not really that guy (despite whats happened this past couple years), and if she tries something i will give in.. but idk, theres a reason we only talk during those hrs.. pretty sure she doesnt know we talk. same old girl, i was hoping after the divorce she would change her ways. its saddening to think we'll never be together again, even if its my choice.
the bi thing was cool in high school and college but there comes a point where if i don satisfy you completely...deuces. i hate that i waited so long to leave, maybe it wouldve been easier
and i feel bad for her current gf who supposedly is gnna marry her dec 2017.. she obviously is the same girl, maybe shes cool with it idk. it makes me happy im still the last dick shes had in her
people who follow my posts on riu and real life know how strongly i felt and feel for her.. how fucked up i was when we split, shit im honestly still recovering.. just typing this brought a tear to my eye
idk really why i posted this.. i guess just had to speak on it. my friends irl dont understand, our past and odd relationship
you know she was the first girl i fucked and only girl id been with till 2 years ago...a long ass time. i guess there will always be something there
i hope we can atleast have a good friendship
im worried that seeing her will bring me back down. i was in a pretty dark place last year.. maybe i shouldnt even be talking to her and really try and cut ties and move on. but theres still hope somewhere un me.
idk what i should do, and i kind of have a few gf's as it is right now. who would be pissed if they knew i even talked to my ex
fyi i spent .a solid hr typing this... ugh lol
anyway sorry guys... thanks for reading....