Im an asshole....

Hydrotech364

Well-Known Member
I hope it works out man.I deal with the same shit just on a smaller level.Detox once a month because theres none around.Not for a lack of funds.Wish there where a natural PK that had the same effects of lortab.I already have a helicopter problem so I dont need to be growing poppies.
 

neosapien

Well-Known Member
I was clean 4 months..then I got depressded and shot up oxycontin again and now im detoxing all over again and i feel super shitty =[

Im shaking, sweating, crazy crazy dreams...im so dumb....
You're only going to be able to kick it, if you REALLY want to kick it. You need more than just yourself to help you bro. Have you told anyone else? Going to NA meetings is a good idea only if you interact with the right people there,some of the younger fiends there will just fuck you up more. But the old heads there who actually have lost everything are your best bet. Look at and talk to them and ask yourself if that's the life you want to live. Unfortunately I've known 5 maybe more people who have od'd, it ain't that hard to do. Look into those opiate blocker implants,I know a guy who got one and he says it works. Suboxone is cool and all but you're still depending on something. Well anyways good luck bro, I believe in you.
 

TokeSmoker420

Active Member
Yeah, I like how this used to say "I shared a life story blah blah blah," nice edit bro.
lol shuddup nobody gives a shit. and yeh it is a life story, ya got a problem? you got a big mouth kid, your lucky we aint face to face, or you wouldnt have a face, ya dig?

its easy to talk big over the internet, i was just sharing a life story, something u cant understand because your obviously a mindless, emotionless human being. your nothing but a kid, with no pussy, sitting behind his computer on RIU wasting away his life.

learn some respect man, cuz if this wasnt over the net you wudnt be gettin away so easy with talk like that.

peace.

edit: oh and dont bother replying back man, ur annoying me. if u wonna talk get at me face to face son.
 

80mg

New Member
I'm on day 3 and down to 3mg of suboxone. I heard about those opiate blocker implants. All it is is a really really high dose of bupenorphine (the opiate in suboxone) slowly released everyday like a mega ER tablet. Now if I really cant control myself Ill consider it but that seems reall really really super duper fucked imo.

The worst part of getting clean honestley is all the supressed emotion. As for thedocs08 posts about woman they did make me LOL honestley. I was the same way...

Bros before hoe's woman will never get me down. I was pretty aqwered with woman till I was about 17ish when I finally had my first sexual experience (I know...very late...dont need to hear it) and it made me alot less aqwered. The problem was I already meet this mystery woman of mine before then. She was younger than me but was already pretty matured and had a few seuxal experiences plus drop dead georgous. When I first meet her I was just so shy! I failed in lack of better terms and got in that dreaded "friend zone". At first I realyl didnt care. But after a while I realised "I really really like her".

After about a yrish of being friends, one night at my house we opened up. Turns out I wasnt alone in my feelings and she started confessing things that both made me happy and upset. Afterwards we made out and shit but she stopped me from going further just because of the moment was super emotional. The next day.....idk I got super shy again and slowly we started going back to that friend thing. Afte that I fell into this deep deep depression and started abusing heroin and oxys. Slowly she started getting mroe self destructive too with cocaine, sex with asshole guys (and woman -.-), and a straight alcholic. We were poison for each other.

Now to sum up the rest of what happend without a novel, by the time I manned up I was akready a dope fiend and broke which was a major turn off. She was all coked out and fucked up doing all kinds of whoreish things and I would get mad at her and not talk to her. At first it really bothered her and she confessed she lvoed me too and it killked her I thought of her as a whore, but after a while of her continueing this behavior....I like...gave up on her. I couldnt be just friends, but she couldnt be more (most of the time)....last time I saw her she is just like this empty shell. She's there physically, but not there at the same time. It killed me....idk all I can hope for is that while I get my life together she takes some of what I wrote her a few days ago to heart and try to clean herself up as well. Fml.

Its fucked too...cause Im almost 20, not that shy little boy anymore (ive had sex with laot of woman and even a few threesomes and hookers) and like....when I think of her...I get fluttered with emotions. Love ofc but also rage for fucking with my heart ofr so many years. All in the mean time finding out my father raped my sister and basically giving up on him....I guess you can see how heroin became a crutch from reality for me.

In conclusion, the moral of the story is....always wait 40 minutes after you eat to go swimming.
 

skiweeds

Active Member
I was clean 4 months..then I got depressded and shot up oxycontin again and now im detoxing all over again and i feel super shitty =[

Im shaking, sweating, crazy crazy dreams...im so dumb....
dont even do that shti again its terrible for you. just drink a few beers and/or smoke/vape some good burn. everyone i know that has gotten into needles (not counting roids, actually not bad if used properly) really fucked their lives up. instead of buying that fucking garbage, save some money and buy a nice tv or new kick ass video game. hell buy one hell of a grow setup and grow you own medical weed. dont become another waste victim of society. and if your heading down that road, get help asap. no one should live the life of a junkie. your not only hurting yourself but your friends and family as well. and stay away from those stupid alternatives methadone and suboxone as well. find a good job and try to make lots of money. having extra cash to spend is a better high than any drug. i never touched a needle but used to experiment with stupid drugs including a lot of different pills. nothing good ever comes from it. if your friends do it then keep away from them. they will only negatively influence you.
 

80mg

New Member
Ya I totally agree about the suboxones. I was on them for over a year now but I realise I have to get off everything once and for all. Thats why Im detoxing a mg a day which is actually a pretty hefty order but one that I can do. So today is 3mg. tommorow 2, then one, then...well see =/
 

poplars

Well-Known Member
good man good man. remember to get a lot of cannabis too, cannabis has been proven to help stop opiate addiction.

since your deep into it I'd say it would act more as a dull-er..... but regardless it'll help you stay off the shit.
 

Balzac89

Undercover Mod
good man good man. remember to get a lot of cannabis too, cannabis has been proven to help stop opiate addiction.

since your deep into it I'd say it would act more as a dull-er..... but regardless it'll help you stay off the shit.
Thats a line of BS. Marijuana may help with withdrawals but it is no cure for an opiate addiction. Opiates alter your brains functions and can't function properly w/o the drug. Thats what withdrawals are.
 

poplars

Well-Known Member
Thats a line of BS. Marijuana may help with withdrawals but it is no cure for an opiate addiction. Opiates alter your brains functions and can't function properly w/o the drug. Thats what withdrawals are.
i'm just saying it's been proven to help ward off lots of the withdrawals.

cannabinoids do affect nearly all the same transfer systems in the brain, that's why it WILL reduce the withdrawal symtoms, not cure them in hardcore users of course.

but common, how could you call it bs when the cannabinoid receptors work on dopamine, serotonin, etc. same receptors the opioid receptor works on, with less influence on the nervous system.

so common I'm not spouting bullshit here, I said it would help, not cure.
 

sunni

Administrator
Staff member
cut off all connections when i used to do oxies (snorted) i went to this sketch place man omfg the guy was shooting up and hes like dont shoot up i have aids needless to say i pretended to pick up my cell phoneand left without the drugs, scary shit
 

dirtsurfr

Well-Known Member
Take it from some one that has gone thru many years of addiction,
The only cure out there for you is going to come from you...
Stick to the Bud it will not fail you
If you really want comfort gey away from all the Drama and change friends that need changed.
 

GanJulia

Active Member
I'm really hoping that you get off this, i've read your thread. My ex boyfriend ruined our life together because of an opiate addiction. at the end he couldnt hold a job, and ended up stealing from me and others to get his drug money. My family put 3 seperate roofs over his head and supported him as he was supposed to be going through probation rehab. I know how hard it is to get off that drug, i've seen what its done to people. It literally changed him, I don't know who he is anymore. Stay strong because if you don't, your looking at the end of your life.
 

grow space

Well-Known Member
Its your own fault!!! Tell me, why u started this shit in the first place ? I cannot understand it, havent we all seen where this kinds of behavior leads....You are an asshole man, just like it says on the thread headline :peace:


But still, i hope u get your act together and get over it.
 

poplars

Well-Known Member
Its your own fault!!! Tell me, why u started this shit in the first place ? I cannot understand it, havent we all seen where this kinds of behavior leads....You are an asshole man, just like it says on the thread headline :peace:


But still, i hope u get your act together and get over it.
its all based around lack of coping mechanisms.... shit got bad, instead of coping with it with his mind, he used pills instead...
 

grow space

Well-Known Member
its all based around lack of coping mechanisms.... shit got bad, instead of coping with it with his mind, he used pills instead...
u must be a one hello of a weak person to do it then, a fucking pussy-boy in my opinion! Life has to be hard( not druggy hard), because then u can actually learn something, thats one of my life filosofies. But making hard drugs a part of your life, thats....Thats WEAK
 
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