Finally trying da blow
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DarthD3vl
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he's barely into his early 20's lol
[video=youtube;qYS732zyYfU]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYS732zyYfU[/video]
i didn't see yours until after i posted. i'm dumb.
timeismoney1
New Member
Yeah im 21. I been a good boy 
DarthD3vl
Well-Known Member
I was throwin them up pretty fast. its all good, different when played live anyhow.i didn't see yours until after i posted. i'm dumb.
Nullis
Moderator
Oh, I loved it. Still do. I could write a book about how that all came to be, and it would probably even be interesting to other people, too. How and why a person becomes opioid dependent (or addicted to any substance) is quite a bit more complex than your average bear could fathom. What I hate the most is when I hear these elitists or even seemingly 'normal' people say things along the lines of that they "have no sympathy for drug addicts". Let me tell you drug addicts like myself don't want your fucking sympathy. We still pay taxes and contribute to society in positive ways, many even have high paying jobs of importance and families they support the best they can; and what we want, if anything, is to not be stigmatized, treated like scum and imprisoned solely because our choice of substance isn't 'socially acceptable'. And to make matters worse, even cannabis smokers who've experience very much the same kind of stigma and rejection from the whole of society, albeit usually to a lesser degree, still turn around and persecute individuals who use or are addicted to other drugs. Hypocrisy runs rampant, ubiquitously.
The thing is once you've been using [opioids] long enough your normal brain chemistry becomes fundamentally altered. Some even speculate that the anomalies may exist before a potential addict has used at all; they'd call it a genetic predisposition to addiction. Low and behold substance abuse, along with other neurological disorders that go hand in hand with it, does seem to run through families and indeed heroin addiction had presented itself in my family before I was even born (more so alcoholism, though).
After the heavily-sedated dream-like phase subsides and you're an up and coming addict those effects aren't so intense anymore. If you're an IV user maintaining yourself you'll catch a rush at your normal dose, but mostly you're using to feel normal or a little better than. Even if you aren't dope sick; even if you've gotten past the dope sickness, or put on MMT and slowly detoxing, you feel sub-normal. It's called post acute withdrawal syndrome, it comes with depression, anxiety, lack of concentration, increased irritability, loss of interest and zero motivation, and a general sub-normal feeling that persists for too damn long (months).
ANC
Well-Known Member
As a previous addict (not coke) I know of this destruction of the self. Every interest you have dies, a part of you dies, and you never get it back. Its been over a decade since I gave up on the bad stuff, and still I am restting. If anything I am repeating an adult version of my emotional development as a child.
DarthD3vl
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racerboy71
bud bootlegger
yah, me too.. i've been addicted from everything from banging a bundle of dope a day just so that i wasn't sick, forget about getting a rush at that point, to smoking $100s a day in rock, and pretty much everything in between minus a lot of the newer rc's, i've seen a lot of good friends and people i came to care about not make it as far as i have and are no longer with us..
the grip of addiction is hard for sure, i don't like to see or hear of anyone who has to go down that road, but it's all an individual choice, who am i to tell someone not to do as i did?? i just like to hope that if i can tell just one person it's not worth it and don't waste your time on the shit like a lot of other people already had, well, it may have just been worth all of the bs i've been through, while using, and in the ten years i now have clean..
the grip of addiction is hard for sure, i don't like to see or hear of anyone who has to go down that road, but it's all an individual choice, who am i to tell someone not to do as i did?? i just like to hope that if i can tell just one person it's not worth it and don't waste your time on the shit like a lot of other people already had, well, it may have just been worth all of the bs i've been through, while using, and in the ten years i now have clean..
timeismoney1
New Member
Not buying snow now
i rather save $. So its time to get my indoor growing on finally^_^
i rather save $. So its time to get my indoor growing on finally^_^
racerboy71
bud bootlegger
that makes me happy to hear time...Not buying snow now
timeismoney1
New Member
Yeah i was thinking harf at work today. Kept saying fuck 32$ for a half g that will last a hr or so. Was like nah fuck that.
Plus im broke all the time so its time to grow. I have a few beans i cant wait to pop!
Plus im broke all the time so its time to grow. I have a few beans i cant wait to pop!
racerboy71
bud bootlegger
that was the thing that bothered me about it time.. i know that you've been struggling to get your money together and move on up in life, and deciding do start coke at this time in your life was going to be nothing but counterproductive to your goals..