My birthday was today, it was pretty ....well, depressing. without getting into my whole long life story (long story short) ive had a really really rough go of it the past year or so, again i dont want to elaborate to much..during this tough time for me i stopped talking to and making new friends, and even less talking with my old ones, theres many reasons for this, it doesnt really matter, its not the point. the point is my birthday was today, well dec 14, and only one person said happy biirthday, and to be honest they didnt even say it they texted me it...like, whats that shit, ya know? tbh it felt pretty shitty, and im not one to every feel bad or pity myself to much, i honestly dont even know why i made this post, maybe i still feel bad? most def. self pity... i guess i just want to vent a little bit about it..i hope 2013 brings better times for me, but, i dont count my chickens...sorry again for the pity party.
ps. to top it all off the ct thing really twisted me up in a knot, i have a 5 year old, i couldnt even imaine, i dont even want to try, i would most definitley go insane, at best...i dont pray but i will pray for those families tonight..sickening...merry christmas im going to sleep.
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