Dying alone..

Do you guys ever think you're gonna die alone? No friends no family. It seems that I always turn into a dick with everybody I meet. I get into a mentality where I honestly start believing everybody is a dick so I need to be a dick too.. It always comes back to bite me in the ass though.

yep think about it sometimes.
nah...no need to dick.
just kick back

I don't know.. like my sister I haven't seen in years told me I was gonna die alone.. a couple of my exes too. I've been kicked out of a friends place before since I was a dick.. now I have my own place, but it's empty. It sucks.

Nothing wrong with dieing alone, I'd rather do it that way than die with people watching me.
Hopefully my death will be at a time of my choosing.

I'm definitely going to die alone. No ifs ands or buts about it.

Matthew Rapley said:

Nothing wrong with dieing alone, I'd rather do it that way than die with people watching me.
Hopefully my death will be at a time of my choosing.

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You talking suicide? I was thinking of commitibg suicide, not sure though. I mean I'm only 18 so I feel like I can change somebody's life for the better good.. But I'm not sure if livin g every single day is worth it. I'm not talking about dying alone the moment you die btw.. I guess I meant to say I'm afraid of living alone until the day I die.

Carne Seca said:

I'm definitely going to die alone. No ifs ands or buts about it.

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Awww but carne.. that's sad brother. As one human to another human, we both share the same emotions since we're human, I love you .

come on heph... u smarter than that to even consider ending your life there bud...

dont buy into the "relationship" propaganda thats out there like on lifetime and hallmark channel and other "shit"...

its all a load of dook... and for that matter EVERY single one of your ancestors WON...

not one of them failed to procreate... and here you are the INCREDIBLE and astounding FACT that over millions and millions of years... here you are today one of the few biological organisms that get to experience this thing called "life"...

so you can either choose to dwell on the millions of years of "evolutionary traits of what is now flowing through your chemical body" i.e. (the need to procreate...

or you can go out and "get it done" if you know what i mean...

and heck even if you do "die alone"... you will have at least done what all of your ancestors have done and continued our existence here on this planet for at least one more generation... that in itself should be plenty satisfying... and who knows you may not ever have to die alone in that case either...

Hepheastus420 said:

You talking suicide? I was thinking of commitibg suicide, not sure though. I mean I'm only 18 so I feel like I can change somebody's life for the better good.. But I'm not sure if livin g every single day is worth it. I'm not talking about dying alone the moment you die btw.. I guess I meant to say I'm afraid of living alone until the day I die.

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dude you need to lay off the shrooms for a bit it makes some people paranoid & self loathing . I stopped taking psychedelics when every time i looked into a mirror all my skeletons would fly out, even things i had already overcome. Find a hobby you enjoy and keep at it in time you will come across people with the same interest and new friends will be made. If someone is making you feel bad just ignore it. I have fucked up before & at the end of the day im still here. You don't need weed or drugs to be happy they can make free time more enjoyable but it shouldn't be your source of happiness. Taking pride in all the small thing you do is a good way to get out of this kind of slump. Try to paint or learn new skills and be happy with your attempts even if its not the best. Just tell your self that you are now better then when you started.

Be happy and you will meet other happy people. When surrounded with happiness it will only grow in yourself. Unfortunately the same thing happens in reverse if you surround yourself with people who hate life.

i think everybody thinks that at least twice or five times

i guess it boils down to your version of alone

Dizzle Frost said:

i think everybody thinks that at least twice or five times

i guess it boils down to your version of alone

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Depends on what alone means to you and why its important. Some people go off the grid to be alone the rest of their life. If you die doing what you enjoy does it really matter what the meaning of a single word is.

When I am alone with free time I end up hyper focused on random things. I research the shit out of it until i know it, do it, accomplish it & then move on to the next thing that wanders across my path. But i guess you mean socially

dont do it man. some people say life is a game but its more of a turn, in the end u either freeze or you burn, only 1 chance to live and learn.

think of the positive things in life. if you feel you need to change every few hours self reflect on how you are acting and adjust accordingly. no one is perfect and we're all dicks at times.

cannofbliss said:

dont buy into the "relationship" propaganda thats out there like on lifetime and hallmark channel and other "shit"...

its all a load of dook... and for that matter EVERY single one of your ancestors WON...

not one of them failed to procreate... and here you are the INCREDIBLE and astounding FACT that over millions and millions of years... here you are today one of the few biological organisms that get to experience this thing called "life"...

so you can either choose to dwell on the millions of years of "evolutionary traits of what is now flowing through your chemical body" i.e. (the need to procreate...

or you can go out and "get it done" if you know what i mean...

and heck even if you do "die alone"... you will have at least done what all of your ancestors have done and continued our existence here on this planet for at least one more generation... that in itself should be plenty satisfying... and who knows you may not ever have to die alone in that case either...

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True that.. I know my life is amazing and I'm greatful for my ancestors so I've been trying to appreciate it.. but god dammit I look to the left and there's nobody there.. I look to the right and what do you know? there's a giant rabbit.. nah jk there's nobody there. But dude, "get it done" is probably the best advice you could give me.. I really want a little heph running around so that I can show him/her the beauty of life. A kid would give my life so much meaning. But shit bro I'm only 18 and financialy in a hold, I don't love any girl enough for her to be the mother of my kid. Dude I'm weird, what kind of 18 year old wants a kid? lol. I don't wanna fail my ancestors ha. I guess I should try out a few ms.hephs.. but all the girls of my generation are just a bunch of sluts.. like seriously, I can't find a decent girl. I'm tired of hoes trying to get into your pants.. There has to be a girl that hasn't slept with all my friends ha.

Thanks ancestors.

Hepheastus420 said:

True that.. I know my life is amazing and I'm greatful for my ancestors so I've been trying to appreciate it.. but god dammit I look to the left and there's nobody there.. I look to the right and what do you know? there's a giant rabbit.. nah jk there's nobody there. But dude, "get it done" is probably the best advice you could give me.. I really want a little heph running around so that I can show him/her the beauty of life. A kid would give my life so much meaning. But shit bro I'm only 18 and financialy in a hold, I don't love any girl enough for her to be the mother of my kid. Dude I'm weird, what kind of 18 year old wants a kid? lol. I don't wanna fail my ancestors ha. I guess I should try out a few ms.hephs.. but all the girls of my generation are just a bunch of sluts.. like seriously, I can't find a decent girl. I'm tired of hoes trying to get into your pants.. There has to be a girl that hasn't slept with all my friends ha.

Thanks ancestors.

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Well take that as a sign you like nurturing things. Go out and lanscape your yard and grow vegtables. Watch it flourish and know its because you are caring for it. Plus it will raise the value of your household

RyanTheRhino said:

Depends on what alone means to you and why its important. Some people go off the grid to be alone the rest of their life. If you die doing what you enjoy does it really matter what the meaning of a single word is.

When I am alone with free time I end up hyper focused on random things. I research the shit out of it until i know it, do it, accomplish it & then move on to the next thing that wanders across my path. But i guess you mean socially

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Not even socially though.. well kinda socially. But I just feel alone and like a small spec in a giant dark world (not trying to sound emo).. kinda like this guy . I'm really bored with everything even my once loved hobbies. Don't you ever feel like ol rag doll there? Hmmm I guess I do have my dog. He won't leave me ha.

420greendream said:

dont do it man. some people say life is a game but its more of a turn, in the end u either freeze or you burn, only 1 chance to live and learn.

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LOL I don't need to be talked down bud . This isn't a suicide thread. I'm just being honest with you guys. The thought of suicidal thouoghts has passed my mind billions of times. I hate it, I try not to dwell on them but it's kinda hard.

Hepheastus420 said:

LOL I don't need to be talked down bud . This isn't a suicide thread. I'm just being honest with you guys. The thought of suicidal thouoghts has passed my mind billions of times. I hate it, I try not to dwell on them but it's kinda hard.

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Dude I have had that thought before too so i know what you are talking about. I dont know if it was because i got stabbed or that i changed my lifestyle since i did them at the same time,but ever since then i have never been happier. What i used to call alone is now peaceful solitude.