Dying alone..

Hepheastus420

Hepheastus420

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uppitybitch said:
​I'm just stating the fact that you're an emo fag. When you realize this you'll be a little happier
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lol now I'm a fag? would that even matter? I like gay people.. like carne is gay and he's awesome. And even if it's emo, everything I said is true. Your font size alone makes you a rather annoying troll.. Somebody's going on the ignore list :).
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EROsain

EROsain

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uppitybitch said:
Well good luck in finding a girl all your friends haven't already fucked.
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i d k who you are but your too main stream in your thinking bro, there is a god chance that you will make it through life just fine, but if something relatively Real happens to you you will see, right now i know you may think you know what sux , loosing your job, or getting dumped i d k . and after i post this you might come up with some Bs shit that happened to you but , your an easy tell cuz of the way you think
 
j.GrEeN.<,{'^'},>

j.GrEeN.<,{'^'},>

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Why, as the world spins, do I stand?

Still as the leaves, when there is no wind,
Why does it hurt so much?
When everything you believe in, feels right,
Why am I falling?
When everything around me is rising with the sun,
Why look for pain?
When there is none,
Is heaven a place on Earth?
Or does it come from the heart,
Every breath I take, is another fire, burning up inside,
I know that sometimes the truth hurts, but don’t ever let it slide.
Am I the only one, who takes pride in the little things?
The colour of the sky at dawn,
The feeling, knowing you’ve got something to give,
Even though they spit in your fire,
The freedom to run the waves, whenever the time is right,
The joy, of taking pride in who you are,
Even though they try and scar,
The flame of the candle, dancing in the window pane,
You are fulfilled; you have nothing more to gain.
Is there another part of me?
A part I do not know,
Whatever the future holds, I cannot tell yet,
But I can now see the glow,
A shimmer of light,
A glimmer of hope,
In everything I do.
Feel every moment you live,
For you do not know,
When the sun will stop rising,
Become who you were born to be,
For everyone is here for a reason,
Discover the meaning of life,
You will know when you’ve found it,
The warm heart, and sound of tiny toes,
Pitt-pattering on the floor,
The sound of giggling and laughter,
Where there was none before.
Feel love, when you give,
Not only when you get,
I ask for one thing,
Don’t leave this world yet,
You have many more things to discover,
The light is upon you,
And remember…
You’re never alone. --- S. Perkin

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As I close my eyes
I feel nothing
As I breathe in deep
I still feel nothing
As I sit alone

That's what I feel alone

My Eyes are closed
My Breathing deep
And my body still
And I feel alone
Or am I

Do I still feel alone

That tingling on my cheek
The itch on my scalp
The raising of my hair
The cold breeze around me
And the touch on my hand

Am I alone...

I feel the light come towards me
I hear the voices in my head
I still my mind
And expand my self
And see the world

I am no longer alone

I walk the paths of light
I sing with the Angels
The Devils join in too
I can never be alone
For you are there too

I am never alone

We walk in the garden of Eden
We sit 'neath the great colossus
We fish in sacred waters of life
And we talk of the mysteries
Like old friends, and sometimes lovers

We are together, together we.

My old friend is here
A guide, A guardian
A teacher, A healer
A person I trust

So when you sit alone and feel nothing,
Know that youre never alone
It just takes time
For the spirit is with you
Have faith
And walk in the light
Be with your darkness
And fear not the fight
For the spirits of your path
Will never see you wrong
For it is only when we think
That that feeling goes wrong
A medium you are
A psychic for all to see
Let others mock you
Let others deny you
Let others ignore you
For you shall see
The truth is always in me.
Put the test to yourself
Have faith in your words
If you know the truth
Then the heart is clean
Don't deny yourself
Don't let others dissuade you
Follow what is truth
For of it comes from spirit
It is the truth
Never alone shall you be
Sit with spirit
And you shall see

For never alone shall we ever be.
And may love and light
Always be with thee. --- D. Watts


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I desire so to conduct affairs, that if at the end... I have lost every other friend on earth, I shall at least have one friend left, and that friend shall be down inside of me. --- A. Lincoln


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Carne Seca

Carne Seca

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Hepheastus420 said:
Awww but carne.. that's sad brother. As one human to another human, we both share the same emotions since we're human, I love you :).
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awww.. I love you too. :)

It's Hell being a gay Mormon. It's either live a celibate life or leave the church. I made my choice. Now I have to live with it. Such is life.
 
Grampa

Grampa

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the key to a good life is to be good to the people around you. Thats all you have to do to be happy. Surround yourself with a few good people and treat them well.
 
Doer

Doer

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Hepheastus420 said:
LOL I don't need to be talked down bud :). This isn't a suicide thread. I'm just being honest with you guys. The thought of suicidal thouoghts has passed my mind billions of times. I hate it, I try not to dwell on them but it's kinda hard.
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If you can still ask yourself, why should you end yourself, then you don't need an answer. :) On the other hand, I been through the dim corridors induced clinic depression. Self harm is the big risk. So, thoughts passing is one thing, but Intrusive Ideation, is a big flashing WARNING.

If we find ourself fantasizing, for example, about that Oak tree or bridge abutment and our airbags, what kind of run up distance, total velocity necessary, etc, Seek Professional Help. You may have a brain tumor or something. Our survival instincts are supposed to totally negate Intrusive Ideation.
 
lokie

lokie

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I believe when my turn comes I will be alone.

I do not allow many friends. so by default i have very few to none I call close.

Family all live far away If i see them 1 time a year that's a good year.

So I believe I will be alone when my turn comes.:-|
 
ThE sAtIvA hIgH

ThE sAtIvA hIgH

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hey heph , dont go topping yourself , the great thing about life is we dont know whats around the corner , imo you get one life that is meaningless and gone once its over , you might aswell sit it out and laugh about it when things get shitty , theres allways someone worse off than you , i used to think about things like you , now i just let life roll on , its pointless worrying about anything , i never worry about anything except the welfare of my daughter , everything else means nothing to me , the only thing i dont like about death is that i wont be around to protect my daughter , but then i wont know anything about it so why worry about it .worrying about shit aint gonna help anything when im dead , so i might awsell live my life not giving a fuck about it .
 
H R Puff N Stuff

H R Puff N Stuff

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why are you talking about dieing your only 18 ,your voice barley changed you got a long ways to go yet and the first step is realizing more than one person is saying to chill, everyone eventually finds someone make sure the dickish side of you has chilled before then. oh and this is your world we are just characters in it you have more control over how you see the world than you think. garbage in garbage out.
 
Zaehet Strife

Zaehet Strife

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Everyone dies alone, but i think you mean this in terms of having someone there holding your hand or giving you support while you take your last few breaths before you close your eyes forever. This is totally understandable, and i think it is up to the individual to decide on what is going to make them happiest. Personally, it doesn't matter to me weather or not i am going to have someone there when i die, if i get to choose when i die, which may not be the case. I think that when i am ready to stop playing this "game" i will make the decision to end my life if i find that i have nothing left to live for. I fear old age more than i fear death. The older i get, the slower i heal, the less i can do physically, the less likely i will be able to think clearly, less people that i care about will be alive, the less meaningful existence will be for me. If and when i decide to cease to exist, if there are others alive that i still love i will talk to them about it, and if the pain of my departer would be too great, i wouldn't be able to end my life until theirs had ended. The reason for this is because of my empathy.

I love life too much right now, i love learning, video games, sex, food, cannabis, cubensis mushrooms, running, playing, swimming... the list goes on and on. I am having way too much fun for me to end it now, but i know that there will come a day far off into the future when i will get tired of life... and i don't think there is anything wrong with that.

In this day and age dude, with the technology available, being of the human species and living in america... theres just too much to do. Boredom shouldn't be in anyones vocabulary this day and age. If you are 80, all your friends are gone, you are in pain (mentally, physically) i can understand suicide. But not being 18, not being 26 (me) there is just too much damn fun to be had! And don't waste your youth away while you have it, spend every moment doing what you wanna fuckin do, you only get this one shot man, this one chance and its all gone. Make it worth it, be responsible for yourself, treat others with kindness and respect (if they show you the same in return) live life compassionately and to the fullest.

Like Richard Dawkins says, the chances of us being alive right now are so god damned astronomically small that we as individuals are the luckiest beings in existence. Yea i switched the words around, but you get the message.

I live in the middle northern part of the states, my dream (as meaningless as it may seem for others) is to ride my bicyle to Cali and learn how to surf. Thats what im saving up for, i just wished i would have figured all of this shit out before i hit 25 so i could have gotten a head start fallowing my dreams. Don't wait man, whatever you do, don't wait, and don't waste your time.
 
drolove

drolove

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Hepheastus420 said:
Do you guys ever think you're gonna die alone? No friends no family. It seems that I always turn into a dick with everybody I meet. I get into a mentality where I honestly start believing everybody is a dick so I need to be a dick too.. It always comes back to bite me in the ass though.
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same boat as you man. we gotta fix our shit or we might! good luck with the fight
 
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