i have been depressed lately i have sever social anxiety and no frinds i want frinds but my social anxiety is horrable. if it wasnt for my dog i would have killed myself a long time ago. im 22 no frinds no family closes family to me is 800 miles away my grandmother who i never talk to. i am about to be homeless cause i cant work cause of my anxiety and the only thing im good at i cant do cause it is illegal where i live i would give anything to have a chance to move to a legal state so i can grow and get medicen for my anxiety without a prison sentance. im not an ugly person i actuly dont look bad at all but i still dont have enough cofidence to go outside much less talk to a girl my dog is about to die he is 18 and i probably wont be to far behide him. i bought a 20 gauge and i keep 1 hollow point slug just incase so i will have a way out of this horrable life. i inderstand that lots of people have it worse than me but it dosent make me feel any better. i mean i have food and drinks and people are out there starveing but i still hate my life. i have no hope and o see no end to this dark tunnel i only relly see one way out...
peace and much love
sticky
You realizing this makes you more stronger than you think.
Like many others, I share in the same problems you have. The easiest way I found is to not care. I had horrible anxiety all my life and would sometimes hide from certain people, now I just dont care. They see me, I see them, and I just keep thinking "whatever".
I cant even begin to think about all the shitty stuff that has happened in my life, but my advice is to not dwell on it. Dwelling on hate or jealousy hurts your own body more than you know and it grows like a tumor.
The good news for you is that you were born in a developed country and that you speak english. I travelled and taught english in china and found it very rewarding. I did not have any money or speak chinese, but the chinese students showed me a lot of respect and wanted to be my friend. They accepted me very easily even though I am a pretty weird guy.
Just remember that life is super super short. People I know dying around me yearly and they all say the same thing, "make sure you live your life with no regrets"