Am removed right now....with good friends who are looking after me for a while and allowing me to talk it all out loud, cry and scream and rant and vent, bitch, give up, get it together.... Not forcing me or pressuring me and no time limit.
Our little girl is at home with her dad... I miss her so much. Being here with friends and their kids makes me see just how close my daughter and I are actually. We have a very isolated life so she and I spend lots of time together. Like me she's a total softie. I am far from them now... cant even pop in and give her a hug
She doesnt want this. That I am more than 100% certain. I know this because she is more honest with me than with her dad. He gets angry and impatient so easily and she is always so careful not to do things to annoy him. Sometimes she is afraid to tell him things. But I know she'll say things to him just to please his mood. Sad I know. All she wants is for her mom and dad to be together and to work out their shit. She knows he has not been entirely fair.
And that PISSES her off.
She is such an incredibly strong little soul. I am so proud of her