Well I first tried weed after 17 years of not getting high because I hoped it would help me medically. However, the only stuff that really helped the pain much was indica-style weed, and I don't really like the way it makes me feel (lazy and apathetic). Good sativa-style weed doesn't help the pain, but it makes me not care so much that it still hurts! LOL
And I have to be honest here, despite my
original intentions of using this stuff as medication, my
honest motivation for continuing to use it is as a cheap sort of "mini-vacation" a couple times a week - life just feels a little more magical somehow when I am high!
When I used to get high all the time though when I was younger, I
lost that feeling...it was more like I "needed" to smoke weed just to feel normal and life kinda sucked when I could not get any. That's why I am so careful not to use it very much anymore, because I want it to feel special when I get high. When I only get high occasionally, I enjoy both aspects of my life (sober and high) a lot more than I did when I got high every day.