Everything is relative brother man, as black as you feel, there are millions (the far majority), of Africans in Africa, that would think people in just about any urban ghetto is living the high life.
These shitty shanties in the front house them, most often far from amenities, like schools, clinics, police and other services. Babies are being brought home from the hospital to those. Your problems (although real), to them, are 1st world problems. Be grateful for what you have, and let your talents earn you what you deserve.